frustrated

last night I watched 'Hero'
I had seen half of it, the first half.

nice twist ending.

Right near the end, the scene where the two lovers die.
Theres a bit of dialogue where 'Snow'? says 'why didn't you block me?' to 'Broken Sword'
They had an arguement, then a fight, finally BS dropped his sword allowing Snow to kill him.
I don't think she had ever intended to kill him.

I had a revelation about how sometimes in a relationship, during arguements, harsh words can be expressed by one party that can leave the other wounded deeply. Sometimes this wound causes the victim to separate from the other in the relationship, whilst the person who said the stupid word is left asking 'why didn't you just ignore what i said' 'why didn't you just look the other way, realise I was making a fool out of myself, and ignore what I had said' 'why did you have to take that particular thing to heart'... of course by this time it is often far too late.

When Snow joined her lover in death, i cried. It was quite emotional for me, and i'm not sure yet why that is...


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I have two film projects in process, both short form.
One is about a journey, the other about two people relating to each other.

in the words of Federico Fellini, every film i make is autobiographical & every film i make is non-autobiographical.
or at least he said it in more eloquent words than I.... probably in italian too...

I think both are gonna be silent films.

I have picked actors who i would like for the second film, but the first is likely to be done first, and yet I have no one to play the role.

perhaps Andrew. I will ask him tonight.